Our baby girl turned 2 months this past Thursday, and 9 weeks on Friday. I've managed to keep a tiny human alive for 9 weeks (and 2 days, but who's counting?)! Some days the hospital seems like forever ago, and some days it feels like this morning. While I was pregnant I had several people tell me that once the baby is born, the days drag on but the months/years fly. They couldn't have been more right!
I only have 9 days of maternity leave left and already I'm experiencing such mixed feelings. I'm ready to get back to my career and my clients, I've missed just about everything about the salon. Thank God for a job that I love, otherwise someone would probably have to drag me to work kicking and screaming. I admit that some days my patience is so thin that I just want to hide under the covers - and she's not even mobile yet! - but I truly have enjoyed spending my days cuddling with my sweet girl.
I only have 9 days of maternity leave left and already I'm experiencing such mixed feelings. I'm ready to get back to my career and my clients, I've missed just about everything about the salon. Thank God for a job that I love, otherwise someone would probably have to drag me to work kicking and screaming. I admit that some days my patience is so thin that I just want to hide under the covers - and she's not even mobile yet! - but I truly have enjoyed spending my days cuddling with my sweet girl.
Aaaand, speaking of cuddling, that brings me to this. She will NOT nap if I'm not holding her. Nope, not having it. I'll have her asleep - and I mean so asleep that I can lift her arm or leg and when I let it go it drops like an anchor - then I lay her down and bam! Eyes fly open and the wailing begins. These days I don't have much time to eat, which I guess is alright since even a walk on the treadmill is out of the question. With that said, good luck to those watching her while I'm at work! ;)
The constant holding can be exhausting and when I lay her down at night (she's a sleep champ at night!) I feel a sense of relief that I have a few minutes to myself to do as I please. What do I end up doing? Getting in bed, looking over the edge watching her sleep, missing her and telling myself not to pick her up. My mom and mother-in-law both have come over a few times so I could run some errands and take a breather. I look forward to it, but after a few minutes I find myself hurrying through my errands and rushing to get back home. Funny how that happens.
The constant holding can be exhausting and when I lay her down at night (she's a sleep champ at night!) I feel a sense of relief that I have a few minutes to myself to do as I please. What do I end up doing? Getting in bed, looking over the edge watching her sleep, missing her and telling myself not to pick her up. My mom and mother-in-law both have come over a few times so I could run some errands and take a breather. I look forward to it, but after a few minutes I find myself hurrying through my errands and rushing to get back home. Funny how that happens.
I've been jotting down when she does something new and trying to keep her baby book up to date. I always think I'll remember something, but of course I never do! This week she began cooing like crazy, and responding to us with cute little noises. She discovered her hands and went cross-eyed a couple of times trying to focus on them, but they usually go straight to her mouth. She also started swatting at the toys that hang from her playmat, and is really gaining strength in her neck. She screams bloody murder after a few minutes of tummy time but her doctor told me to do if even if she cries... it's pitiful!
A lot of the time I still can't believe that Brent and I are parents. The explosion of pink, the tiny socks falling out of the dryer, the baby monitors in every room, etc. have become my new normal and I kind of love it. I'll risk being cliché here by saying she's the best thing that ever happened to me.
Wish me luck as I go back to work! I'm trying not to stress about how she'll adjust to not being with me all day but in a twisted way, I revel in the fact that at this point in her life, I'm the only one she needs. It won't be like this forever. And in case you were wondering, I typed this whole thing on my cell phone while Kaydence snoozed on me. Sigh... ♥
~Kirsten
"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."
--Hebrews 11:1
"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."
--Hebrews 11:1
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